I d e a s ?

2012-01-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

Repeated exposure and proximity contribute to attraction between two person.

agreed.

Be ?

2012-01-26T23:34:00.004+08:00

there's thing you wanted to do, but not given the chance.

there's thing you're given the opportunity to do, but at the wrong timing.

there's thing you refused to do, but have to do.

there's thing you've never thought of doing, but doing it now.

there's thing you dreamed of doing, but can't in reality.

there's thing you wished you could do, but never possible.

there's thing you chose to do, but not really a choice.

there's thing you planned to do, but forever in the planning stage.

there's thing you regretted doing, but it's what should be done at that moment.

there's thing you've done it through pain, but that's what makes you what you are now.

life's never what you wished or hoped it would be,

always two extremes, there are.

To be or not to be.

2012-01-12T21:59:00.004+08:00

best moment in life is when you're served with your favourite dish.

i'm having mine ;)

2012-01-11T22:47:00.004+08:00

courage is what it all takes, nothing else.

be brave, my dear.

Merry ?

2011-12-24T11:38:00.003+08:00

there's a random stray dog or puppy, i shall call it, kept wandering and coming into my house once the front gate's opened.

that's ze' random fella

i have no idea why it just kept wanting to enter the house.

odd thing was, it actually barked at me as though i was the one who's intruding it's crib -.- it might be small in size but fierce. i saw ticksssssss all over its body, gowshh :S pity.

anyway, merry christmas! enjoy the festive season and the final week of 2011. time just flies, don't you agree?

2011-12-13T22:27:00.001+08:00

当你已不需要或已下定决心时，

它就会蹦出来

影响你所有的一切。

可恶！

2011-12-07T16:58:00.001+08:00

everyone has his/ her moment.

only awaiting the others to light them up.

sacrifice as one's lightened up

and as life burns itself up.

life's a brief candle,
burn out or blown out.
hence, appreciate and enjoy, regret not.

length is never the problem,
it's the content that matters.

fret not, shine yourself to the best!
or be selfless, shine others to the top!
;)

2011-12-04T17:20:00.001+08:00

soon my face will be transforming into ze' shape of the tv in my house.

effect of facing it 2/3 of a day.

2011-11-30T21:34:00.001+08:00

i feel like leaving home

with a huge backpack and a camera, nothing else

to Tibet.

to see the other side of the world.

to feel the other part of humanity.

to experience the other wonder of life.

wanna come along? ;)

2011-11-29T21:57:00.001+08:00

i don't know

but i just feel like typing 2 sentences here.

that's it.

Time ?

2011-11-26T20:50:00.001+08:00

came across an article in the newspaper today on A Journey Through Time V (with the theme, Time to Celebrate), hosted by Starhill Gallery, showcases a wide range of luxurious timepieces and jewellery. the photos of the timepieces which are going to be in the exhibition shown on the paper interested me, and there you go, a visit to their websites.

once my eyes laid upon the collections of the brand Hautlence, they went from -.- to O.O!
just B-R-E-A-T-H-T-A-K-I-N-G!

Check out the beauties here! all of them are so pretty that i can't just choose 1 to show you guys

Franck Muller Giga Tourbillon is another hot babe!

timeless ♥

Ship ?

2011-11-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

friend

what does that word above stand to you?

a person whom you can trust and rely on?

a person whom you can share and talk to?

or just another person who you both walked into each other's life?

doesn't matter what the word stands to you

there is always a one common thing which has brought you two together.

some thing you both have in common

a simple, tiny little topic

that has opened you two up, to each other.

it all started out like a sheet of paper, being placed in a typewriter

clean and blank; simple and pure; just some plain and surface chats.

"hey! how are you? oh, glad to hear that! me too!"

then, you both type through the paper, even adding in pages

adding in drawings, pictures, colours, emoticons;

making these used to be plain wordy pages as interesting and creative as possible.

stacks and stacks of papers accumulated, as time passes by.

they are all compiled nicely into a pretty scrapbook,

as pretty as the memories, when the pages are flipped through.

those faces, those chats, those smiles, those tears

oh, those little things that build up these stories

just beautiful.

without you two realizing, you both are building and sculpting a ship

a ship that sails both of you through time

though there have been :( or even >:( ;

sometimes even "hate you!", "disappointed!", "how could he/ she?!"

they are just tiny scratches on the body of the ship.

terrible weathers, storms, even hurricanes

oh yea, hard times.

but this ship sailed through with ease,

ze' both of you did a great job!

physical and mental support, acceptance, understanding- unconditionally

factors that hold the ship and you two tightly together.

it was hard, yes

as long as you still have each other, impossible is possible.

there might be holes to be mended, cracks to be repaired

none of these are able to bring this ship down.

Friendship

Night ?

2011-11-14T14:17:00.001+08:00

sleepless night

so much is going through the mind.

maybe a cup or glass of something

can help to cool the running machine down.

unnecessary things are processing in this running machine,

disturbing.

dark room, dimly lit by the light source outside

the red curtain by the window looks lovely at this moment,

like a romantic bedside lamp.

oh, breathtakingly calming.

the plan view of the highway has never been this beautiful.

street lamps lining at the both sides of the lengthy highway

form two strings of tiny yellow dots

taking the shape of highway.

a once conventional and usually vehicles overflowing highway

has its inner beauty, a total different face

only shown when we, busy humans, are congesting the dreamland.

the imperfect eyesight is a plus at this point

those dots are so dream- liked.

so blur yet so clear; so dreamy yet so real;

words are just too shallow to describe.

guess it's time bring this heavenly scene to ze' dreamland (:

Xiao ?

2011-11-12T11:09:00.001+08:00

人们啊，

你们的笑容真美。

就像那雨后的彩虹 -

灿烂、纯真。

就像那池里的莲花 -

不染、动人。

可为何这打从心底的笑脸

渐渐消失了。

省下的只有那冰冷，虚假

带着笑的面具。

是为了配合虚伪的城市，忘了简单的微笑

或已变得何等自私，连笑也不能被分享了？

其实笑，

是不须要理由的。

Stare ?

2011-11-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

such a comfortable chair in this soothing ambiance.

perfect cup of drink, warming.

great evening.

there, a lady in white, holding onto her cup of cappuccino.

her face carries a tinge of weariness, though she smiles widely to thank the waiter.

her beautifully lit hazel brown eyes are sending a message,

a message of being uneasy.

guess there's something bothering her.

here, a man in suit, sipping his strong expresso

while taking his stroll online using his tablet PC.

movements of his fingers shows he is definitely a pro

but there's been unusual pauses of these fingers,

those thick eyebrows of his come to a join and form a straight line.

left hand shields his mouth then supports his lower jaw.

something he sees is tickling his mind.

oh, interesting people all around.

sit back, relax, and

stare or more appropriate- observe.

you'ld see how interesting a person can be.

even the most uninteresting person,

even the one you see everyday.

White ?

2011-10-29T20:53:00.002+08:00

on the palette

an artiste does his magic

with his brush, like a wand

with the oil paints, like the potions.

white

is the most essential colour on his palette

for it has the power to brighten up,

each and any colour on his palette.

red shows its power of being warm.

but when white is matched

pink shows its power of being passionate.

no matter what it is matched to

it has the power of blending in,

well enough that even the colour itself changes

according to its amount.

though it is easily stained,

it has the equal power of staining others too.

that is why i ♥ white.

Silence ?

2011-10-29T20:21:00.001+08:00

silence is gold

shining in the corner.

but what is not known

the price to pay for it.

silence is the best solution

perfect solution to every problem.

but what is not known

the needed truth hidden behind it.

no doubt silence can be the most appropriate answer

to most questions

but not all.

sometimes it just needs a small break through.

well, one have the right

the right to remain silent

give it a second thought before you shut yourself

in the room of silence.

coz there is always someone who is willing to listen.

Peaceful ?

2011-10-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

-Jackie Evancho-

her beautiful voice makes me feel peaceful.

Aunties ?

2011-10-21T17:14:00.001+08:00

aunties' talk.
(you know who you are, dear aunties. :P)

enjoyable though :D

Dreamed ?

2011-10-20T14:58:00.001+08:00

yea, tats what appeared in my dream yesterday night.

HUGH eye bags!

funny thing was, i was trying to flatten them with my fingers.

LOL?

Loyal ?

2011-10-19T11:29:00.000+08:00

i tend to be loyal to anything that i like or used to. a brand, a highlighter, a pair of slippers, a hairstyle, a person, an animal, just anything. till an extent, i'ld only get myself tees of different colours and designs but of the same brand, no other brands allowed. just because i'm so used to wearing ze' brand. i feel totally devastated just if i couldn't find the highlighter of my favourite colour of the brand i'm so used and loyal to. very loyal, indeed. HAHA!

my highlighter has run out of ink :|

they've changed the packaging of it, not nice anymore D:

Intersting2 ?

2011-10-16T13:56:00.000+08:00

Lift- riding rules:

no talking to anyone, including those you know.
no eye contact at all times.
maintain a "poker face".
pretend to be deeply into any book or paper in hand.
in bigger crowd, you are to be stagnant or freeze at your current position.
pay extra (and i mean EXTRA) attention to the floor number change at all times.

do you see yourself in any of them? xD

?

2011-10-14T11:24:00.001+08:00

body symmetry = attractiveness ?

something i could hardly get why.

Bow ?

2011-10-02T12:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder why.

sometimes i wonder what the reason is.

sometimes i wonder where.

sometimes i wonder what the problem is.

sometimes i wonder how.

sometimes i wonder what else is there to be done.

guess i know your questions.

guess i understand your feelings.

guess i know your worries.

guess i understand your helplessness.

guess i know your difficulties.

guess i understand your disappointment.

maybe it is time to let go and set free.

stand up and take a bow.

this is not something you can control.

you've tried hard enough, really.

2011-09-24T10:06:00.000+08:00

应该是时候累了。

应该是时候停下。

乐观：不，再往前几步就是了！走，走，走！:D

悲观：天啊！还有十万八千里，怎么到得了!?

现实：不如叫部车吧？

只在于你如何选择。

Achievement ?

2011-09-17T09:25:00.004+08:00

take the test below and see what you score, just answer yes or no to each question.

if offered a choice of tasks, would you pick one that is moderately difficult rather than one that is very difficult or easy?
do you enjoy tasks more if you compete against others?
do you prefer tasks that have clear, definable goals and measurable outcomes?
while working on projects, do you like feedback about how well you are performing?
would you prefer criticism from a harsh (but competent) evaluator or from one who is friendlier, but less competent?
do you prefer tasks where you are personally responsible for the outcome?
when working on a difficult task, do you persist when you encounter roadblocks?
do you typically receive high performance evaluations (e.g., receiving top honors or special recognition in sports, clubs, and other activities)?

scoring:
give yourself 1 point for each yes you answered to the eight questions. people with higher number of yes answers tend to be high in achievement motivation, in another words, KIASU. (especially for those scoring 7 and 8)

so what's your score? :)

Interesting ?

2011-09-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

some facts shared by my psychology lecturer during these few lecture classes, not very sure if they ARE facts, but pretty interesting that i can't resist from sharing with you guys :D

babies will die because of not being touched constantly. totally amazed when i heard this :O
you are still considered in your YOUNG adulthood even if you're at the age of 45. err, maybe i'm just so lack of general knowledge :P
children, from birth to the age 2, believe that anything out of sight does not exist, even their mom who leaves for the toilet, to them, does not exist anymore.
people who nod frequently are more intelligent, said to be stimulating some parts of the brain more. i'm not so convinced with this one though.
there's a relationship between your attachment to a parent figure when you're an infant and your love for a romantic partner in your adulthood. not only that, this attachment does describe how you interact with your friends/ children/ family members.
our trust level towards the others is determined as early as from birth to approximately 12 months old. (ex: your mom failed to feed you when you're hungry in your infant year causes you to develop mistrust) this actually stays till the day you die. wow! just because your needs are not fulfilled at that age, you'll have difficulty in trusting others for your entire life!
at the age of 18- 35, our main focus in life is intimacy. loneliness will attack if failed in finding an intimate partner. err, swt? seriously? o.O

aren't they interestingly funny?

Regrets ?

2011-09-07T11:37:00.002+08:00

the path

has been chosen.

the road

has been taken.

what has been and will be sacrificed along the way,

countless.

time? effort? relationships? what else?

worthwhile?

only future has the answer.

once asked: "ever gonna be afraid of facing it alone?"

HA HA! no point being afraid after you've made the choice.

in the end, independence

is the only thing you can rely on,

not anyone else.

well, the scenery along this rough route,

reminisced,

picturesque, breathtaking, mind raping, disturbing, hideous, unforgettable

appreciate every bits and pieces, like a priceless piece of art.

bitter, unpleasant, sweet, memorable, sour, undeniable

taste every flavor, like sipping from a cup of finely grounded coffee.

not that bad after all.

for being given a chance to be different

and have a diverse perspective.

"every cloud has a silver lining" does stand, no?

or just being overly optimistic?

2011-08-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

End ?

2011-08-21T18:36:00.001+08:00

came to an end, finally.

what do i feel?

nothing.

yes, u heard me right, NOTHING.

why would i feel anything anyway?

who cares!?

Final

2011-08-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

The effect of final exam - even the shape of the face changes.

2011-08-12T19:12:00.000+08:00

Filled ?

2011-08-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

it's occupying up all the space of the computer!

not this time please!

those capacities are for

the hundreds of pages of lecture notes and textbooks!

shoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

stop loading, will' ya?

THINK ?

2011-08-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

think deep,

before action.

think deeper,

before saying.

think wise,

before deciding.

think wiser,

before speaking.

think indefinitely,

before leaving.

think more indefinitely,

before staying.

think shallowly,

before falling asleep.

think shallower,

before waking up.

think a thousand times,

before rejecting.

think another thousand times,

before accepting.

think, thinking, thought

think THINK think THINK think THINK think THINK think THINK think THINK think THINK think THINK

GOODNESS! where does the heart stand?

at the corner, i supposed.

or has it even been taken into account?

:O ?

2011-08-05T00:31:00.001+08:00

saw these in a watch magazine, got me :O


Jaquet Droz Grande Seconde SW Titanium 2011

so so so so beautiful!

Bell & Ross Instrument BR 01-92

This one is so cool!

Opus 11

This piece is even more OMGG!
The numeral of the hour is assembled in the center of the circle then explodes into chaos before instantly reassembling as the new hour. COOL!

Panerai Radiomir Composite Marina Militare 8 Giorni- 47mm

Looking simple and gorgeous.

Fortis B-42 Black Black Automatic Day/ Date

Dark yet eye catching.

very beautiful, aren't they? :)

so wanna own one of these!

Direction ?

2011-08-04T13:56:00.000+08:00

an end

which direction of it is not given.

none knows where it is

none knows how it looks like

none has the guide to it.

imagination and determination- the only elements

which build the ladder to the entrance of this exit.

but human, is vulnerable.

too vulnerable and careless.

on the way to this ladder,

don't make your way into the Hotel California

for if you're exhausted.

feel the route

it might the correct one.

take it

and don't ever turn back.

you are lucky enough if you've found yourself a tour guide.

Change ?

2011-08-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

i want, i wish, i hope

for a change.

change in?

i don't know.

attitude? thinking? believe?

rational? emotional? numb?

physically? mentally?

charisma? listening? action?

positive? negative? neutral?

all of the above or maybe not?

suggestion, anyone? :)

No ?

2011-07-27T22:15:00.001+08:00

Q: will you ...?
A: No.

Q: can you please ...?
A No.

Q: is it possible if you ...?
A: No.

Q: please ...
A: No.

Q: hey! are you ...?
A: No.

Q: do you know ...?
A: No.

Q: lend me a ...?
A: No.

Q: i think it's better if ...
A: No.

Q: can we ...?
A: No.

Q: please try ...
A: No.

Q: just try, never try never know ...
A: No.

well, there is always a better answer than "No"

light up a candle

take a deep breath

and walk yourself towards "Yes"

Caught ?

2011-07-14T22:01:00.001+08:00

a newly found skill of mine - catch what's on your mind secretly :P

oh yea! say something and show me the face of yours, might be the key for me to catch what is dancing in your dear brain.

no idea why this is happening, but it just occur so naturally that almost every guess i made is correct. luck, maybe?

a face expression of yours speaks a thousand unspoken or not to be spoken words. a sentence of the different tone shows me your deep down desire and truth. the combination of these two tells me your untold thoughts.

but then again, it does not work the same way on each and every one whom i know, only stands for those i know pretty well. besides, it only happens when i can feel (or i should say, sense) your fishiness (:

well, i hv no idea what i'm crapping about. anyway, thanks for reading this crap post :)

have you ever got caught?

2011-07-12T12:10:00.000+08:00

原来我是很清楚我要的是什么，

也很清楚自己的立场。

2011-07-06T10:28:00.007+08:00

也许麻木是好的，少了感性，多了理智。

烦恼也没了。

真好 = )

Sign ?

2011-06-28T14:10:00.002+08:00

ruled by the Sun.

Leo ♥

Buried ?

2011-06-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

from this pile

to this current pile, in just few weeks time.

i ♥ you, dear assignments and lab reports!!

i really do, dear Amechania ♥

Dawn ?

2011-06-25T17:31:00.000+08:00

the most beautiful and unwinding period of the day.

Aurora ♥

Imagination ?

2011-06-25T17:16:00.000+08:00

imagination is as priceless as life.

Athena ♥

Stroll ?

2011-06-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

take a peaceful stroll alone, calming.

Eirene ♥

Shine ?

2011-06-24T13:49:00.004+08:00

let the warm sun shines away the unpleasant.

Helios ♥

Prism ?

2011-06-19T12:06:00.000+08:00

depth of insight, prism theory.

extreme- sided point of view.

Close to Heart ?

2011-06-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

ask question, answer it close to heart.

but truth?

or just another white lie?

friend, stays close to heart.

but truth?

or just another passerby?

respect, from close to heart.

but truth?

or just another hesitation?

truth, arise close to heart.

but truth?

or just another good show?

love, keep close to heart.

but truth?

or just another delusion?

yes, close to heart.

but truth?

only one knows.

Dear Friend 3

2011-06-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

no, please don't be fooled by her sweet smile there.

only when you get to see her face when she's at work

like this 0_____0

with her huge eyes and super serious face

scary, isn't it?

no, please don't be fooled by her serious face there.

only when you get to know her more

like this xD

with her laugh and tomato- red- face

happy, isn't it?

no, please don't be fooled by her red- like- apple face there.

only when you are given the chance to know what she's thinking about

like this --> :) :( :D -.- =.=" >:( :| :\ =___= too much to be stated here

with her more- complicated- than- onion- layers mind and thoughts

complicated, isn't it?

well, just get these out of your mind

she is just another tub of ice- cream

cold yet sweet, only if you dare to scoop it up and try

fattening yet irresistible, only if you dare to take another scoop

just a problem, she's a tub of Opulence Sundae- untouchable :S

Name: Carollee

Dear Friend 2

2011-06-04T11:34:00.000+08:00

a young lady from Kepong

despite being the most "matured" in the group,

she's able to stay "young", even "younger" than some of us.

this young lady has something very special - an insanely wicked laugh

the main cause of everyone ROFL

what's so funny? No idea =.=

something you cannot deny

yes, she looks good

or maybe i should say she looks better than you think.

yes, she is confident

or maybe i should say she is just another normal human being

like you and me.

yes, she has the smile

or maybe i should say please don't ever think of challenging her.

yes, she has the vibe

or maybe i should say you haven't got the chance

to see her doing her best fishing tricks in class.

this young lady, is a walking rose.

Name: Diva or dhivyalosini

Dear Friend 1

2011-06-03T16:20:00.005+08:00

she

a girl from the state named Penang,

with the Penang passion flowing in and out of her.

she

has long rebonded hair

long but short after a round of persuation to get her to cut it.

she

a girl prominent of being random

randomly humourous yet blur.

she

a girl who is purely workaholic

perfectionist type of workaholic.

she

has always been quiet

quietly observing each and everyone

or quietly moves into her own "nothing box"

she

has two modes- quiet OR crazy

when i say crazy, i mean it!

she

is the electrostatic force

gives you shock unpredictably.

that's her with her signature pose: peace/ victory =.="

Name: Syen or more famously known as ancestor xD

Dust ?

2011-05-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

ola, peeps :)

i know it's getting dusty here but i have no idea how to clean it. so, just bare with the thick inches of dust or prepare yourself a nice piece of face mask before you pay your visit here.

till i find the way to clean it, ciao.

New ?

2011-04-20T18:15:00.000+08:00

new love - the sky

love the way it makes me relax

love its power of calming me

love the stop sign it shows to my brain

love the way it stares back at me

just love it with million reasons.

Know ?

2011-04-16T22:44:00.003+08:00

just got to know

that i have never tried asking for anything

that i have never expected anything

that i have never shared enough

that i have never wanted to show anyone

that i have never know anyone well enough.

just got to know that i have never trusted anyone 100%

not even myself.

knowing that i have been losing myself

once again

losing my aims and purposes.

it's horrible

horrible to have these losses.

what a disturbing situation!

disturbing to see an unknown figure

as i look into the reflection, reflected on the truth teller- Mirror.

don't ask, as i am a passive boat

forced to be floating and going with the flow of the current.

I have lost myself, once again.

White ?

2011-04-15T15:32:00.000+08:00

watching the white clouds

laying down on the warm green grassland

tranquility and peace.

this white

has thought me to think deep

deeper than usual, on matters.

this white

has the ability to turn into a tedious grey.

makes me wonder

a warm, clean and angelic white

has transformed into a cold, dark and devilish grey

why?

yes, i know by heart now

that even the most saintly colour can be altered

leave alone a less than normal homo sapien.

however, for it to be purified again

never, is the word.

please take note of your colour.

Realization ?

2011-04-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

a moment of time

when everyone around

is occupied with one another

makes her wonder

why isn't she busy or even get hooked in a conversation

just like what she observes.

the same question mingles in her head

seeing others having a whale of time.

there must be an answer to this question, yes.

the normally active and interactive her is missing

no more knowing how to communicate

no more wanting to be involved

no more being noticeable.

finally she realizes

she is no longer the she that she used to be

the one that she wishes to present and marketed to them all

the one that she shapes and perfected for the eyes of millions.

coincidence has contributed to this very moment

lets her see her real self

this coincidence left her opened up

open up for change and self reflection.

ironically, it was supposed to happen ages ago.

being late is better than never.

Unsure ?

2011-04-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

sometimes it makes me wonder why on earth i'm putting in so much effort.

sometimes i just want to leave everything behind and run away.

sometimes it keeps me doubting.

sometimes i have no idea what i've been chasing after.

sometimes it triggers the anger in me.

sometimes i sink entirely into my balloon.

sometimes it demands to not to be shared or even showed.

maybe all it's dying for and i'm desiring is just to have a sun and beach vacation.

Current ?

2011-03-21T11:03:00.000+08:00

hey, peeps! how's life going? mine's pretty lifeless recently, going through the same old, dusty, rusty routine over and over again. still, i think that i have been wasting tonnes of time doing nothing when my other college friends are actually busy all around the place. if you've ~~happened~~ been following this blog of mine, surely you'd know how much i like reading blogs of others. getting to know how they're doing, reading the lines and picturing them having fun, knowing the other side of them through words and etc. - these are all the so- called- benefits i get from reading them blog posts. i mean, it's understandable that expressing through writing (or maybe typing?) is easier.

so, i've been noticing that most are actually jotting down their daily activities through blogging. these posts, made up of the tiny little random things happening around them or even difficulties they've been going through, are enjoyable to be read, not to mention the photos that tell you a thousand words. the way they put them into words is like the mirror, reflecting their real self besides the situation and emotion at that particular time. reading between the lines is the technique here. you might be slapped with hilarious, unexpected facts about your long- known friend. who knows. but one thing for sure is that we tend to express ourselves more sincerely through writing, no?

in my case, however, i prefer to go with the flow, blog about anything that comes into mind. that explains why this blog here is full of random crap, crap that's logical, reasonable and works for me. putting it into simple short sentences is the best way for me to write here, never like lengthy and wordy posts. there you go, short, random, crappy posts.

that all for this post, i have no clue what i've been crapping about here.

take care, till the next post!

I am ?

2011-03-13T20:25:00.001+08:00

all i can say is:" Haha!"

if it's in a sarcastic or pathetic way?

you tell me.

find the noun or adjective

the word or phrase that fits into the sentence.

i have no rights to judge you

neither judging myself.

why?

because that is how the world been spinning, realistically.

but the main point is

i have no idea how.

i don't know who i am.

show me the luminous hand,

bring out the real soul in this shell.

Merci beaucoup! :)

Consider ?

2011-03-13T20:03:00.000+08:00

been considering too much lately.

about what to say.

about why others say the particular sentences.

about how others would feel if i were to say something like that.

about the future.

about purposes.

basically anything that's around me.

tired.

restless.

just want to stop by,

lay back and enjoy the scene.

impossible.

been considering too much lately.

Like ?

2011-02-27T18:22:00.000+08:00

been telling a lot of "i don't like" recently. Now let me list u what "i like" (or maybe, prefer). Some might seem weird but that's Me! :P

i like to observe, what ever u can list as long as i can see and look at. yes, I LIKE TO OBSERVE.
i like to know what's on others mind.
i like to stare (i know it's impolite :P).
i like to be the boss of myself but not boss of others.
i like the responsible and punctual me.
i like watching others' fingers at work.
i like being alone and surrounded by friends at the same time.
i like smart ass.
i like to feel busy.
i like to LOL and make others LOL at the same time.
i like tea (without sugar, please :D) but not coffee.
i like food that i feel like eating at that time.
i like slacking off when working in RO.
i like to be sarcastic (i know it's not good to be one).
i like pressuring myself.
i like scheduling what i need to do in my mind.
i like not to have my time organized.
i like reading blogs owned by my friends and sometimes their friends' too.
i like bringing a small bottle of water wherever i go.
i like having an umbrella by my side when i travel alone.
i like to be the follower at times.
i like to be lazy and stuck with the tv all the time.
i like getting my goals achieved silently.
i like to question.
i like earthy colours but not girly colours.
i like listening but not telling problems.
i like doubting myself.
i like setting a full meter of "trust" for everyone i know and reducing it when have to.
i like having clear borders when socializing.
i like blue eyed Siberian Husky.
i like the truth, both telling or knowing (i know it hurts, sorry).
i like no Math and History.
i like boy size, sophisticated, cool, unique watches (sorry for starring at the display window for too long :P).
i like wearing specs and leaving short hair and nails.
i like to respect and to be respected.
i like weird, hilarious and random friends.
i like to be casual.
i like Banana Foundation.
i like decisive people.
i like untypical girls.
i like to crap like nobody business.
i like keeping my mouth shut when i think it's time to.
i like reading about my horoscope everyday.
i like to on the CD player playing instrumental music while sleeping (mind relaxing xD).
i like doing the same thing (hving the same food, playing the same game, watching the same drama series) continuously till i get enough of it.
i like the words "if" and "why".
i like pills and no medicine syrup :S
i like travelling (travel around the world and owning a watch retail shop- must- do after my retirement :P).
i like doing stuff spontaneously at times.
i like the sea, sun and beach.
i like cherries (not those artificial ones) but not banana.
i like colourful notes for i'll fall asleep if it's only black n white.
i like saving up but not spending (not a good habit either).
i like walking home alone.
i like chewing (chewing gum, bubble gum, straw, wooden stick?).
i like planning but also following plans of others.
i like the feel of success.
i like discovering something new.
i like being used to.

and the list shall be continued.

i do have a lot of things i like. most importantly, I LIKE MYSELF & U who's reading this :)

till the next post, take care!

Distance ?

2011-01-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

i didn't want to admit
refused to take notice
even blinded my consciousness
only to bury the truth
the very ugly truth
that the distance between us
has gone far too much wider
as wide as a valley
as i look upon that familiar face of yours
from the other side of the valley
the unfamiliar you comes across my mind
freezing my warm heart
to a piece of dead cold meat
the situation is not clear to me
"what is happening?"
"why am i being trapped in this situation?"
they are questioning my brain
like rifle firing bullets
killing fast
my wrong?
your fault?
no, not the time for blaming
this distance is disturbing me
can i not accept the truth?
can i be the one who is irrational this time?
can you be kind
show me the way to the other side of the valley?
to meet the one and only you
who i have been missing

i just don't want to accept the truth.

Past ?

2011-01-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

The past

is to be kept as one of the members of memories

using it to stay grateful and feel loved at the same time

if it was good.

grow stronger, tougher, and wiser

for which it were dreadful.

thinking of standing close and laying by the side of it

till the end of time.

thinking of replenishing the scenes in it

till the delusion fills the mind full.

time to clear out the clouds and mist in front of the eyes

life dominated by it

could be the worst disaster ever

be it the choice of oneself or being pushed unwillingly

draw a border

turn away from the fantasy it created

face the reality

next, take a massive step forward into the future

accompanied by hope and strong will

look forward to tomorrow or the day after

let the past be in the past

allow it to leave, with the least residue as possible

never grab it in hands with full force

as it will definitely empty the life potion, with no single drop present in the glass

free it

sunshine is showing its hand

live for the future rather than the past.

Door ?

2011-01-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

there's a door

which i dare not touch

let alone knocking on it

or trying to get to the other side of door

yes, i am curious

curious to know what's kept and closed behind the door

there might be a possibility that i could help untangling and unwinding the twist and turn

which kept the door closed

curiosity kills a cat

that's the unbroken code for this untouchable door

please, would you do me a favor?

just leave the door open

even just for once

let me fill the emptiness of the chest of curiosity

maybe that's too much to ask for

how i wish i could be more courageous

at least take the effort to try decoding or getting the permission to enter

sadly, i can't take a step forward

truly afraid of breaking the only lock to enter the door

i am still discourage to open the door.

Maybe ?

2011-01-17T14:25:00.020+08:00

Maybe . . .

i should be more realistic

i should know my responsibilities better

i should be more understanding

i should change my attitude

i should manage my time better

i should keep all of my comments

i should not be too optimistic

i should be more courageous to voice out

i should know and understand my position clearly in all the situations

i should have put smiles on others' faces

i should not hope for anything that's i'm not deserved to own

there is no maybe.

Blank ?

2010-11-29T20:45:00.001+08:00

holiday's still on.

days passed.

if they're to be described using sheets of paper,

they would be pretty much blank.

blank, for being filled in the same info.

blank, for being uncreative.

blank, for the laziness to add in even another few words.

however, if we're to look at the blankness from the brighter side,

it would be a total different.

blank, to be filled with more interesting info.

blank, to make it more similar to a holiday.

blank, to remind me it's time to move my lazy butt a little, even for a millimeter.

any how, B L A N K is still the word.

Trip ?

2010-11-15T16:00:00.000+08:00

my holiday has been pretty enjoyable, other than eat n sleep n getting stuck with the tv, headed penang for a short trip with the girls.

this trip was designed specially for FOOD :D and we did eat like there's no tomorrow. unexpected things happened all around penang, seriously unexpected ones, i mean. none expected that a famous nasi kandar would be small shop located in a small alleyway. none expected rapid penang would be such nice. none expected that shopping there would be darn cheap till some of us wished to move to penang for that reason. UNEXPECTED is the word for this trip.

other than that, it was a very enjoyable one. sorry, no photos to show here.lets go for another trip :)

Out ?

2010-11-15T15:45:00.000+08:00

my result is finally out!

satisfied? yes :)

next semester: same target! (hopefully :S)

L. O. V. E ?

2010-11-13T15:04:00.001+08:00

tis time the title doesn't say everything about this post. xD

i realized that i seriously LOVE myself more than anyone else. have no idea why it is so, just feel like it. does it mean that i'm selfish? does it mean that there's something wrong with me? or does it mean that i seriously have no idea on what LOVE is?

others will always say that they LOVE the most, example, PARENT(S), GRANDPARENT(S), FAMILY, even their FRIEND(S). i have never heard anyone telling that he/ she LOVEs the most is his/ herself. but actually before u learn to love anyone, u should know how to LOVE urself.

it's not a bad thing to LOVE urself more, isn't it?? at least u know how to appreciate ur own self more than anyone could. at least u won't have the feeling of not being loved by anyone since there's always U, urself, to LOVE U. at least no one can ever separate ur loved one, who is U too, not even the death can do u any part. at least u'll always have someone who love U to share ur feelings, whom as usual, URSELF. although all these "at least" might sound too lonely for u, but what's the big deal. ur loved 1 will always stand by u, support u with full strength without doubts (unless u doubted urself 1st :P), provide enough motivation without the need to be told, care about everything of u, NEVER LET U DOWN, and the list goes on. . .

being alone, or sometimes u can say "lonely", is not that bad anyway. just treat it as the only PRECIOUS TIME to be with ur LOVED 1(urself, of course). enjoy it. LOVE it as much as how u LOVE to be surrounded by ur friends and family. u can do anything u LOVE and preferred (legal stuff, i mean)with ur LOVED 1(urself) without being disturbed. pamper both of u with these activities. u can have so much of fun doing things together :).

SO, why not try loving urself 1st before loving anyone else? u won't lose anything for trying, rite??

I LOVE MYSELF, to the max!! xD SO WHAT!!!!!

p/s: itsalilbitdraggyandumightnotagreewithwhatithinkwhocaresthatwhatithink :D

Things ?

2010-10-30T01:07:00.000+08:00

i'm officially on a 2 MONTHS semester break now. YES, a long 2 MONTHS semester break, after all those hectic n restless days n nights of a short semester, finally having a break for it now. nothing much has been done for this semester, except assignments, lab reports, n presentation. pretty lifeless, i agree. but the following 2 months will be more lifeless i think. why?? coz there's no college and when there's no college for a college student, means no life. pathetic, isn't it? sometimes it's not what you exactly want when you get a hold on it.

ok, whatever it is life must go on. i've actually thought of what i can possibly do to ~~kill the time~~ spend my time.

maybe i could:

get myself a part- time job (earn some extra $$ :D)
watch a much drama series as i could (prison break, fringe, and the list shall go on)
clean up my darn messy cupboard (at least get the stuff arranged)
get a reflection session
have a movie marathon (both comedy and action movies :D)
give the cars a nice shower (i do enjoy washing cars.. weird?)
finish what needs to be done and completed
go on a vacation

the list is to be continued. . .

i know, time's not going to be spent wisely. so what?! just gimme a break! let me do what i want!

i seriously need a crazy laughing session, the one which i can actually get stomach cramp. anyone?? :D

thanks for dropping by and be well, people :) see ya.

Change ?

2010-10-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

hey, human! i'm back :D after 1+ hectic week filled with assignments and lab reports. which main cause was my procrastination :P

the topic of the day is mind changing, the speed, in particular. often hear others talking bout how fast people change their mind, for me there'll be 3 speeds:

speed 1: changing clothes. this 1 is considered as the slowest of all. changing clothes needs much consideration for most of us - which color for the mood of the day? what accessories to match? which pair of shoes to go with? n the list goes on and on and on . . . able to imagine how long it takes to even change another set of clothing (FOREVER!! goodness :/ ). SPEED: slow
speed 2: hair fall. this one is slightly faster. changing your mind just like how natural and never ending hair fall's happening coz new hair will definitely grow and the whole process starts all over again. hair fall happens very frequently and easily, even if you were just combing your hair, mind changing speed 2 happens the same way also. SPEED: normal
speed 3: changing songs being played. fastest of all, i would say. what you need to do is just click or push the "next" button, nothing much. not much/ no consideration needed too, just stop at the song you like/ want. same goes to the case of changing your mind, keep changing till you're satisfied/ happy with the outcome, NONSTOP changing =.= SPEED: fast (surely will get caught at a speed trap for speeding)

so which is your speed??

thanks for spending time reading this piece of crap. seriously have no idea what i'm typing here :S

Tag ?

2010-09-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

looking out the car window often get my mind on work - generating some random thoughts. the thought of the day is the tagging game.

this tagging game which i'm talking about is definitely not the "tag this photo" or "tag a person", but in fact, it's the tagging of every single one we meet with our very own set of "tags". in simpler words, the summary of our judgement on/ description of a person, often in a word. each and everyone of us do bring a bag of personalized tags along with us, tags with an adjective carved on them, tags for tagging anyone we meet.

the procedure of using these "personalized" tags:

meet/ see a person.
observe him/ her carefully.
analyze your results obtained.
dig the most suitable tag from the bag of tags available.
TAG!

why does this game even exist? very simple. coz all of us judge each other with our present cover. weird, kind, stupid, smart, cool, ignorant, nonsense, like, hate and etc. those are the examples of tags we used. whether how good or bad is the tag we put on a person, he/ she can always remove the tag and replace it with a better or worse ones.

either being tagged or tagging someone, it's just a cycle of life. or maybe take it as a game, a game that everyone plays with a sense of reality. no hard feelings :)

ever tagged anyone in your life, thinkers? FYI, i do like this game :P

Review ?

2010-09-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

hey peppos :D how's life recently?

i know this blog's dead for nearly 3 weeks. therefore, i'm here to revive it with some random facts or maybe revealing the real ME! lets call it- the review of myself :P

i do judge a person with his/ her cover, which means first impression is very important for me, BUT i do read the synopsis of the book before doing any judgement. one thing is, that judgement'll definitely stay there till i've read the book myself.
i do care and appreciate others but not each and everyone whom i know.
logic and sense come first, rather than emotion and feelings.
questioning others is fun to me, explanation's a must for their answers (scary??). however, hate to be questioned =.=
boredom does kill me quickly. that is why fun people are very important :D
my favourite words: but/ whatever/ never mind/ what the.../ GREAT!/ shit!/ crap la!?
i do like sentimental songs, in fact, like them A LOT. but i do shake with the beats of pop songs :D
sometimes feels as if i have dual personality, just like uniforms, a pair for college and another for home.
i'm a SUPER lazy bummm. never expect me to clean my room.
very interested in learning body language and lip reading, only if possible.
(over)optimistic is actually the best way to keep me on tract, looking forward but not backward.
sometimes just hate changes, especially when i'm used to the current situation. but changes mean more opportunities :P
nothing's gonna be done if there's no dateline. suspecting if datelines are my main motivation :S
mini games or sometime violent games are the best to entertain myself, other than watching tv.
love stalking others' blogs. will definitely be complaining if anyone never update their blogs. hehe xD
have never gotten any prize from any lucky draw for the whole life :/ unlucky? nahh, who cares :P
prefer the truth than lies. although truth hurts, for a short while.
when i've used the word "hate" on you, just don't hope that i'll replace the word with anything else. coz it'll never happen, sorry to say so.
being frank and sarcastic to a person means he/ she's in the "close friends" list. coz he/ she's the one i can be truthful enough and really care about.
laughter is very essential in my life, second after sleeping :P

tats all for this session of self review. take care.

till the next post :)

BUT ?

2010-09-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

things don't happen by itself but with terms and conditions applied. examples:

changes do need time to be used to but time will never wait or freeze for just for you

accepting a fact needs huge courage but courage will never exist by itself.

being your very own self needs self- acceptance but self- acceptance will never be easy.

forgiving requires forgetting but forgetting will never happen till the day you have Alzheimer's disease.

and the list goes on . . .

everything in this world has a BUT behind it as an exchange. take it or leave it. have it or lose it. nothing's perfect explains it all.

choice is in your hand BUT be sure to use it wisely.

Pathetic?

2010-09-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

learned a new noun today: romantic farmer

what does it really mean? this noun refers to a person who's trying very hard to plant a seed of love into a special person of his/ hers heart, constantly watering and fertilizing the seed with concern, care and warmth, expecting the the seed to be growing and eventually one day the seed will be a healthy plant, and of course, fruiting at the end of the day.

however, no matter how hard this romantic farmer tries to help the seed to survive,he/ she will not definitely get what he/ she hope for - a fruiting love plant. the seed would just die off in the end, not producing anything.

this farmer just doesn't want to give in. keep trying to plant seeds into the special one's heart, increasing the quality of fertilizer, still hoping to get at least a fruit from the seed he/ she planted. the process of dying and re- planting continues.

what happened in the end of the day? the special one just can't stand the romantic farmer anymore and finally took the courage to tell him:"mister, please stop forcing me to accept your stuff!!"

pathetic?

Done?

2010-09-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

finally, finally i'm officially done with my pre- u course. results of the last three subjects were all out by tuesday. satisfied? yea, pretty :D

one year had actually passed so quickly, too quickly, just like in a blink of eye. i believe with the saying, time flies when you're having fun. totally agreed with it coz in this whole year, fun was definitely more than stress. i mean how can i say it's not fun when there's a huge group of interesting people around you? let me introduce you these monkeys which made going college a real good thing to do :D

les filles

#1 Sye Yen - the most random of all
(a.k.a ancestor)

#2 Dhivya - the best laughter of all
(a.k.a diva)

#3 Siew Wei - the smartest of all
(a.k.a carol)

#4 Shok Chen - the noisiest of all
(a.k.a shoki)

#5 Maltha - the youngest of all
(a.k.a piku)

the girls (:

les gars

#6 Cyril - the eldest of all
(a.k.a cereal)

#7 Loga - the worst driver of all
(a.k.a the boss)

#8 Karl - the cheekiest of all
(a.k.a karl butler)

#9 Ryan - the shiest joker of all
(a.k.a dai lou)

the guys (:

each with their partner

PROUDLY PRESENTING: BANANA FOUNDATION(beware!! it's in RED!!)

the craziest of all xD

thanks to these people above, my pre- u life was filled with crazy laughters and jokes, the stress level was at its minimum level everyday even if physics' there :P seriously can't imagine how life'ld be if i'd nvr met them.

now that degree's started, separation will definitely do its magic on us. hope all of them'll succeed in whatever they're doing and please, HAPPY always :D

credits to BANANA FOUNDATION!!!

Right tract?

2010-08-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

degree's starting soon, as soon as next week. however, in this short sem break another ? just breached into my mind : am i on the right tract?

since my pre- u course started approx. a year ago, i've met n been fortunate enough to be friends with a huge group of awesome people ~~monkeys~~. had so much fun till i've actually forgotten it's time for another new beginning ~~time to be alone again(pathetic :/)~~ .

as usual, nothing's perfect. opportunity cost is all you need to consider. but once again, the costs of both sides are just so similar till losing any one of it seems so darn costly. the ? just kept playing in my head, asking me if it worths, asking me if it's necessary. it's not the first time, it seems.

Answer: i don't know but obviously must keep myself clear, clear about what's most important, most in need currently. if i'm on the right tract? answer to be revealed in the future :)

what about you, thinker? has this question ever bothered you? tell me :)

till the next question :D

Dreams?

2010-08-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

welcome back, thinkers :D

went for an outing with my buddies recently and an interesting question just caught my mind:

WHAT IS YOUR DREAM?

that's a common question to most of you, isn't it? especially during the schooling times. nothing's special about this question as you're asked like almost each year when school reopens? :/ but one thing, i realized that this simple question definitely gives a huge impact on one's decision making process.

well, the Q&A session started among us. all sorts of dreams, from old- school type to unrealistic ones, just name it. as i was listening to others' dreams, an enormous ? just busted into my brain, what is my dream???

answer: i think i don't really have one :S coz i set target rather than just having a dream. targets are clearer and more achievable as well :)

i know, i'm REALISTIC, no problem with it :D

so, tell me what's yours?

till the next post, take care :)

Blogging?

2010-08-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

hey, guys :D

this is my very first post...

why blogging? hmmm, let me think:

most of my friends are doing it and feels like it's a trend to be followed?
need a place to express myself since i cannot shout it out in public?
doing for fun as i'm just too free?
just a random activity?

whatever the reason is, it doesn't really matter.

interesting ideas~~(more specifically, craps!)~~ that come across my mind that i would really, really want to share with you people matters the most :D

nothing much about myself, a normal human being with a workaholic brain which would never get tired

- constantly generating questions or even nonsense ideas.

questioning is not wrong, isn't it? :P

that's all for this welcoming post(yea rite!?).

see ya :D