Distance ?

i didn't want to admit 
refused to take notice
even blinded my consciousness
only to bury the truth
the very ugly truth
that the distance between us 
has gone far too much wider
as wide as a valley
as i look upon that familiar face of yours
from the other side of the valley
the unfamiliar you comes across my mind
freezing my warm heart
to a piece of dead cold meat
the situation is not clear to me
"what is happening?"
"why am i being trapped in this situation?"
they are questioning my brain 
like rifle firing bullets
killing fast
my wrong?
your fault?
no, not the time for blaming
this distance is disturbing me
can i not accept the truth?
can i be the one who is irrational this time?
can you be kind 
show me the way to the other side of the valley?
to meet the one and only you
who i have been missing




i just don't want to accept the truth.

Past ?

The past


is to be kept as one of the members of memories


using it to stay grateful and feel loved at the same time


if it was good.


grow stronger, tougher, and wiser


for which it were dreadful.


thinking of standing close and laying by the side of it


till the end of time.


thinking of replenishing the scenes in it


till the delusion fills the mind full.


time to clear out the clouds and mist in front of the eyes 


life dominated by it


could be the worst disaster ever


be it the choice of oneself or being pushed unwillingly 


draw a border


turn away from the fantasy it created


face the reality


next, take a massive step forward into the future


accompanied by hope and strong will


look forward to tomorrow or the day after


let the past be in the past


allow it to leave, with the least residue as possible


never grab it in hands with full force


as it will definitely empty the life potion, with no single drop present in the glass


free it


sunshine is showing its hand 


live for the future rather than the past. 

 

Door ?

there's a door

which i dare not touch

let alone knocking on it

or trying to get to the other side of door

yes, i am curious

curious to know what's kept and closed behind the door

there might be a possibility that i could help untangling and unwinding the twist and turn


which kept the door closed

curiosity kills a cat

that's the unbroken code for this untouchable door

please, would you do me a favor?

just leave the door open

even just for once

let me fill the emptiness of the chest of curiosity


maybe that's too much to ask for

how i wish i could be more courageous

at least take the effort to try decoding or getting the permission to enter


sadly, i can't take a step forward

truly afraid of breaking the only lock to enter the door

i am still discourage to open the door.

 

Maybe ?

Maybe . . .


i should be more realistic


i should know my responsibilities better


i should be more understanding


i should change my attitude


i should manage my time better


i should keep all of my comments 


i should not be too optimistic 


i should be more courageous to voice out


i should know and understand my position clearly in all the situations


i should have put smiles on others' faces


i should not hope for anything that's i'm not deserved to own

there is no maybe.